Crying

Cry why cry
to release pain
pain bestowed up me from
outside sources.

Cry why cry
you cry to ask
the angles and God why?

or

maybe their tars of JOY
crying to show
how much something means to you!

Crying such a sad expression
teal to help you flow smooth
and drown yourself in your emotion.

Cry just cry
for good or bad
just let it OUT!


just a free write.

BET Awards 07(fashion wise)

so no i didn't watch the BET Awards unlike many of America but i did see a PRE show red carpet even were everyone shows what there wearing! Just wanted to share with you.



BEST DRESS FEMALE:
Rihanna
She represented style at its BEST! Rihanna looked breezy and sexy at the same time. She is selling this dress!



BEST DRESSED MALE:
Robin Thicke
Robin look how he always looks! SEXY.

lets start NEW!

today was a hard day... the last couple of days have been hard. i came up with the conclusion that when i'm bored i think... not just think i mean i THINK! which like i examine my boring life and pic out everything that's wrong with it. which could make anyone depressed. Think about my friends that Ive chosen and the family i was born with. Self searching seeing were i belong in this heck-ted thing i call life?

What are friends? i had to look that up today. the definition from www.dictonary.com was:
friend- a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
when i read this i felt as if i didn't have one of these. Even tho i have a best friend whom i luv with all my heart... the definition was plain/strict to the point. but for some reason i didn't think i had friends. or neither a friend. what was this why was i doubting my long term friendship that Ive had since we were 13. Why? i asked myself. Why didn't i think she was my friend? Did i not like her? Are we growing apart? What was it? then it occurred to me why i have had this thought its because i only have her. and when i don't have her or shes away with some other friends that she has. i feel alone as if i don't have her. i thought to myself I NEED SOMEONE ELSE. someone other than her. i need someone like her but not her. i need another best friend! not to replace her but just to have another person to confide in...

So my new quest is to find someone that i just click with someone that's like me but not like me! have you ever went through this dilemma!?